If you had asked me last month or even a week ago, what I had planned for the future, I could tell you. Every little detail down to the colour and sounds. Ask me today and I am at a lost for words. What do you do when for the past few years of your life, you had such a clear image of what the future held and as time went on you started adding more and more to it. And all of a sudden the main component of every decision, every thought, every dream takes it all completely away from you. And they tell you that you’ll be fine, and that you have great things coming and that your future looks bright. But you don’t feel fine and it doesn’t look bright. Everything is just wrong. Before I could tell you what I was up to next week or what I had coming up next month and now I can’t even imagine the next hour of my life.